Resetting the Clock
January 11, 2006
That’s it. I am sick of it. Up all fucking night only to go to bed as the birds start singing. I’ve had it with this shit. I’m no morning person and I’ll always be a night owl but this is ridiculous. C’est ridicule!
I think it’s worse in winter. It’s cold, dark and miserable so I stay in bed a little longer, and you only actually need so much sleep, so I end up staying awake later and, before I know it, it’s 6 or 7am before I start to feel tired. Then, not only do I lose the usefulness of daytime, but daylight, making my SAD worse. And it’s noisier outside, and thus harder to get to sleep.
Things are always more difficult when I’m working on a major release and have all these ideas and problems zooming around my head. Unless I sketch them out on paper or rattle them into an OmniOutliner document I just twist and turn and can’t stop thinking. That’s the trouble with working at home, you never leave the office.
In some ways, being up late works well with the whole time zone thing. Most of my customers are in the US, anything from 5 to 8 hours behind me, so I get emails through the evening (i.e. my “afternoon”), but every now and again it gets to the point where even Californians are hitting the sack before I do.
So enough is enough. Today I’m going around the clock. I’m going to stay awake as long as I can, work, think, relax, whatever, until I can’t stay awake any longer. And hopefully this will result in me getting to bed at a reasonable-ish time and begin to set a new pattern. I’ve managed to do this before, like when we moved house, so we’ll see.